I had an interesting thought today at work. When asked by a friend “how old are you again?” I replied, “almost 30” (almost being in November by the way). I have apparently been answering this way all year and didn’t think anything of it until pointed out to me. “Why would you answer older? Why wouldn’t you just say 29? I’d much rather be 29 than 30!”
Good question Heather, why do I that? So I’m thinking hard about why. I’ve had a lot happen in the past 29 years, that it feels like much longer. Perhaps I can’t believe it’s only been 29 years I’ve been walking this earth and therefore must round up. Could it be a throwback to childhood when you reply “seven and three quarters” because those three quarters are very important to a child? It means that you are older than your friend who is ONLY seven and a half. I’ve said many times that I don’t really feel like a “grown-up” very often. But why don’t I?
I am the eldest of 7 children, one is also married the youngest is 13. I’ve always been the oldest with that crowd. I am usually the first one my siblings call for advice, a shoulder to cry on, or an ear to listen. I have been married for 8 years. We are expecting our fourth child in less than a month. Childbirth four times certainly qualifies for adulthood! Due to the mental restrictions of my husband I have always been the head of our family. I am in charge, I rule the roost, I know what I am doing…most of the time. I am an E5 in the Navy Reserves trusted with a wealth of knowledge and responsibility. My opinions and assessments are valued; my instructions are trusted and followed.
Yet I feel out of place with other parents at my boys’ school functions. I feel the need to be older than people at my mother’s group and even when I was boot camp. Perhaps in my mind age gives you credibility? I should know by now that age has nothing to do with it. Considering how many people I’ve known in various capacities throughout my life, this notion should not even exist.
I know August is terribly late to be making a new year’s resolution, but I’m going to anyway. When asked my age I will reply “29” until November 20th when I will actually be 30. And I’m going to convince myself mentally that I am 29 as well.
